Smash Ego

Friends come in all shapes and sizes. 

The human eye can only see between 430-770Thz. Our ears can only detect sound between 20hz-20-Khz. These ranges make up a fraction of the total sound and light frequency range. This means there is a lot going around we cannot see or hear. Now, with 16 color-receptive cones, the peacock mantis shrimp can detect ten times more color than a human, including ultraviolet light. Animals can detect cancer, earthquakes, pregnancy and so forth. And look how we treat them on the planet...

Just because you are not capable to see hear or sense something, it does not mean it does not exist, little man. Just because you can't communicate with animals, it does not mean they are not living beings. It only indicates the inferiority of your own mind and shallowness of your own heart.

2019 this little fella was exhausted. I was on my way to work when I saw him. I had an injury so I didn't walk fast. To notice this little one fighting even harder to move the choice was obvious, I stumbled back home with the little one and placed him on my littl balcony/sanctuary.     

(July 2021) Jeremiah 8:7 Yea, the stork in the heaven knoweth her appointed times; and the turtledove and the crane and the swallow observe the time of their coming; but my people know not the judgment of the Lord 

Cube of Truth, making people aware/holding them responsible

I cannot turn back time but I can at least try to make right what I did wrong

Participated in the cube (27-3-22 me standing on the right). 1st cube was in feb 2022.

Tibetan child monks in the Himalayas, same activity.. can it get any better? 

Nothing is for nothing. I also see the people I talk to who say they don't care as helpful. Because as a believer, as a recorder, I observe and pass on the message.  There is a particular tribe that keeps telling me how they don't care about animals ("dat doet mij niets") and are proud that they slaughter well. With the measure with which you measure, you will also be measured.

Sometimes there are very precious moments. Like a little boy who looked clearly upset at the images. His mother, obese and shrouded in robes, was photographing and failed to see that her child was upset. I spoke to him and he asked...: "do the police know this?" A child's heart is so pure. They are the sweetest words I can think of, because they show the soul of the child. I explained everything and he would explain everything to his mother because she didn't speak a word of Dutch.

"Animal protection isn't a radical idea. It follows the simple principle that if animals feel pain, joy and fear, they should be protected from suffering."

(- source unknown)

In 2005 kreeg ik tijdens een handtekeningactie voor Wakker Dier (tegen onverdoofd castreren biggetjes) waar ik aan deelnam op een beurs het tijdschrift Change aangereikt. Volgens mij Utrecht. 

Spijtig heeft niemand mij toen over het veganisme verteld. Jaren later zou ik Robert Molenaar tegenkomen op een standje die zo vriendelijk was tegen deze 'lepra patiënt' dat ik zijn organisatie Animal Rights ging volgen. 'Ik was al dierenvriend' dacht ik, maar dat zegt elke dierenvreter.  Langzaamaan vielen de schellen van de ogen. Wat plaats heeft genomen is een buitengewone woede. Want je huisarts, je school, overheid, ed. alle klootzakken wisten ervan maar hebben je aan het kwaad laten deelnemen. 

Haring bijvoorbeeld at ik al decennia 's niet, ik zag ze ineens als kadavers. Toen ik ooit voor een vleesvak stond bij de supermarkt zag ik ineens een visioen van allemaal gillende dieren, bloed overal, ik vermande mezelf en besloot dat ik  het moest negeren want 'wat moet ik dan eten'. Ik had geen weet van de  ±500.000 plantsoorten. En was altijd dankbaar als er eten op tafel stond. Eet wat groeit, niet wie er geboren wordt. Eet een wat, niet een wie.

Always feeding wasps in september, when they can't find a lot anymore.

sometimes animals just show up. at your door to give love and get food, and sometimes to just fall asleep and get their wings in heaven  

this female duck stopped by for 2,3 years with a male, always on the same time  

Baby Pigeon

06-06-2021 Could hardly fly and did not feed itself. So fed it a bit, gave it water and then off to the bird shelter

Ant Mourning. Watched the ant for hours as he stood by his dead friend/mate(?). Other ants passed by but (s?)he did not want to leave the dead ant behind. 

I don't photograph all animals, sometimes you don't have time to think about it. Like the little crickets. I also think that swans are very intelligent. I've guided a swan crossing the road a few times and they seem to understand you. Once upon a time there was a young swan who stopped in the roadway. I said walk on, then turned to the parents who were in the water. I said call him back before he gets hit. The father reacted immediately and furiously came out of the water and so chased the young swan off the road. For example, I (2022) again accompanied a swan that was walking on a roundabout. When I said we had to speed up, those legs suddenly moved forward at a fast pace. That was such a funny sight.

Two Tiny Crickets

We all need help.

A strange screech amidst all other noises.

After an extensive search, there were two tiny, tiny crickets found in the corner of a room behind a door.

The screetching cricket was calling for his friend who could not move and had his tinys leg stuck in a cobweb.

After carefully removing the cobweb from the tiny legs, the two went their way.  

Everybody wants to live.

this little cricket came to drink water (Croatia)

 oooooh humans you look so tasty to me  

Bed & Breakfast Bird

2018 A bird, of which an ornithologist whome I spoke to later that year declared an adult bird, came to my balcony on a hot summer day. I was watering plants in my miniature garden and then myself. The bird sat on a branch and I could tell he wanted too. So I invited him and he came. Had a bath, dinner, slept in a box on the balcony and left after breakfast in the morning. The bird didn't come back, but the next new guest was waiting under the balcony.... 

New Surprise Guest

I like it how they show up out of nowhere and call. 

My Baby Michaela

God sent me this angel. She was dumped under my balcony. I had captured our first meeting on photo and film... She is not under this page called 'my friends', but under family..  

This butterfly flew in my home in 2013. We were mesmerized with each other.

"Animal protection isn't a radical idea. It follows the simple principle that if animals feel pain, joy and fear, they should be protected from suffering." (source unknown)

sticking up for my brothers and sisters, here with my aunty - 2021

Donating custom works to charities

Animal liberation is human liberation man (I say this with a Jamaican accent)

It is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God." Luke 18:25

Something I'm proud of is a break-in from years ago. The fact that there was absolutely nothing to steal. All items such as television, camera, telephone etc are second-hand or received. I don't buy anything new if the old still works. I even got most of the crosses on the walls and bird houses. I think a dress is extra beautiful when it costs next to nothing. And if I really like those expensive heels that much, I'll wait half a year until they're on sale.

(2022...)There is still an opened carton of cat milk in the fridge, which is already a year past its expiry date. It belonged to Mika and reminds me of Mika. And when I go to work out, I take a bottle of water with me that I bought when I was going to bury my father. So I refill it. Those are my treasures....

The Wounded Butterfly

2018 - This was a wounded butterfly at work which I took home to recover in my tiny garden surrounded by fruit, water, shelter.

The butterfly stayed for the night and flew away the next day.    

My Bestie

We all have a guardian angel. John 14-16 Jesus promised to send the Holy Spirit to be with us permanently as our Helper (assistent, comforter, standby).

From Jacob's ladder we know they descend up and down earth. That they listen to God. That you do not pray to angels and they surely won't listen either. If you pray to an angel and you get a reply, congratulations, you just summoned a demon. Angels are in service of God. Your phone line is the Holy Spirit. If you make that phone call to God, he dispatches an angel. Now take note; one angel alone, had the strength to remove the stone covering the tomb of Christ. One angel alone, slew in one evening 185000 Assyrians. Now that's a perfect companion if you ask me. 

My Miniature Garden

I do not have a garden, I have a small balcony. 

But big enough for my tiny friends like bees and wasps and butterflies and birdies and snails to care for. And to grow tomatoes, rosemary, strawberries etc.. 

We can all do something.....

my window posters (shoes for scale)  

Got stickers printed which I add with orders etc 

helped a woman distribute posters and leaflets, poor woman lost her cat. was rewarded with chocolate

with the help of a shop assistant I was able to treat a meat eater and a vegetarian  heehee

Drowning farm Netherlands

2022 Visited a demonstration of the (Netherlands) Party for the Animals / Animal Save Netherlands. Aimed at the drowning farm. Called floating farm. I have never visited a concentration camp. This was the first time.  You know what a camp is for? Exploitation torture and final death. 
Why does it excist? Because the specie is considered being less. It is not seen as a living being with rights and receives an arm tattoo I mean .. ear tag..

April 24 marks World Day for Laboratory Animals

Netherlands is in the possession of the largest monkey torture testing center in Europe; the BPRC. The supply of monkeys from Mauritius are often the babies, children ripped away from their parents, caught from the wild. Then they are transported by KLM and Air France.

so in 2022 I joined the Animal Right march again (Rijswijk).

I was sick, so I walked the march with sore throat headache muscle pain hay fever and fatigue and then went home quickly. At home I immediately fell asleep. When I woke up I found a butterfly in my bedroom.

Friends I see almost daily

Two couples, one couple joined 2021, the other couple I have known for at least 7 years now.

Collared doves are loyal, bright intelligent birds and not flock birds, they prefer to be on their own or with their mate or newly fledged young

my alarm clock every morning

2021 as agreed upon, pooping at the neighbours, not on my side

I'm licked weekly by a visitor heehee (since 2021 I reckon). Veggie snacks only. duh

Crow Friends

Each crow lives in its own territory, some have been living in the same trees for 10 years. People don't realize that. Often people think they are my crows but nothing is mine, they are their own. They fly free as they should. And I don't teach them tricks. I know a lot of crows but there are 2 that are special to me and I know both between 7 and 10 years. Once upon a time there was a young crow I didn't know, but it kept flying next to me. That was a very special experience. Even then people asked if that was 'my bird'.

You see the white on his leg? That very special spot is how I recognize him. I know him for at least 10 years. He is def the leader of his clan.

This crow above is a showstopper, known this one for I think 5-7 years so. 

You have people who say that crows bring bad luck. That's what they say about black cats too. But crows see a broad energy field around you that also relates to things you have no control over. They can announce a message. Case of don't shoot the messenger.  

This beauty with his angeloc black wings photobombed my auntys pic

I saw this crow grow up, it was always in the same bush. Often tossed him some nuts. His house became a cut bundle of fagots... and a few days later, there was nothing left (Feb 2022) poor little chap still hanging around there in march, dude ain't got no house. 

Oh no

2022 Jan - One of the pigeons flew in with a closed eye. Contacted queen Billie again who arranged for her to be checked out by an avian vet the next morning.

right eye good, left eye closed

Luckily it was Sunday so took the bird to the bird hospital in Naarden with train. The bus drove to destination every hour so I had to walk because I had missed it. I asked for directions to an old man who walked all the way to the hospital. He is alone and told that when he got up he didn't even know what day it was. Once on the way back, trains were not running so I was back late in Rotterdam. Saw a homeless person sitting on the floor with a blanket around him that I gave some money. City pigeons come in different sizes I always say.

This is how the journey to recovery started

In mid-Feb the pigeon was brought back by a sweet lady and released. The next morning I heard them all calling and the dove came to my window again. The child looked at  me for a long time. Mutual love.

weeks later, still came by every morning en then a few weeks not

Infernal noise this morning, crows, magpies, pigeons, blackbirds, finches, everyone came to watch. So I thought hey maybe a cat in action and a nest nearby, so I jumped outside. But on the spot I found a dead pigeon. The birds took note and flew away. Too bad a wood pigeon, probably even the one that has been around for so long and that I saw braving the storm in a tree. Why this is interesting to report: because animals communicate with each other. And they might need your help. If you see deviant behavior, you should always take a look. A cry for help is always a universal cry. When you drown, you don't care if you are rescued by a human or a dolphin.

I worked in the office on the top floor, believe the fourth. In Delft, 2013. There came this butterfly in through the window

in a butterfly garden, the day was organized by the army related to the first deployment of my son

Be Kind To All.... 

Balcony Guests 

This spider was a fiesty one. would always run out to me as if he owned the balcony

More Tiny Children

Love needs no words

My moms cat. Doesnt like humans much so I kinda feel special as she is kind to me. She guards Mika, my childs grave, and when I asked her to do so, she did something she never did and Mika did every day. She walked up to my face and touched it gently with her paw. 

2021 Feb - 1th floor in Krimpen aan den IJssel. This butterfly flew towards me through an open window on the 1st floor. It was strange that at that time I was having a persistent (whatsapp HR-NL) conversation with a relative who venerates Mary. I indicated that nowhere in the bible does it say that you should pray to Mary. I have stopped making rosaries because people are using it wrong. It was one of my best-selling creations. The day my bbq arrived is the day I stopped eating meat, so I turned the bbq into a birdbath. When I got my driver's license I decided to ride my bike anyway because I became even more aware of the environment. I could have been rich and equipped with every comfort in this life, but my heart and conscience keep sending me in a different direction.. where there are treasures to be found that money cannot buy

Friends not Food

I never was a big meat eater so the fact that I stopped eating meat didn't change much, when I found out animal cruelty is not happening in some cases, but ALL THE TIME.

I stopped drinking milk in 2020 before corona outbreak when I learned/realized about the dairy industry. Imagine, my breakfast was ice cream for many years each day, summer and winter to cool my body down when waking up. Stopped eating candy (gelatine). For Frederiq to show up out of the blue at the exact same moment I was sad about chicken farms I considered a sign once again.

Felt so sad when I saw this picture. I would have taken the child home for sure. At the same moment dad called me "you've got a visitor". This rooster showed up and made a big impact. 

You know, I always knew it was a being you ate. But I did not know the horrible conditions they were in, and the intensity of their personalities. But I always was grateful like the natives were with the bisons. Not finishing a meal, throwing it or otherwise being disrespectful is something that could always instantly turn me off someone. 

Exhausted bumblebee

16-04-2021 Not my first and will probably not be the last. Every year my eyes spot an exhausted bumblebee on the road. Bit of water sugar and rest and off they go. They are absolutely grateful little critters.

I would never let you lay there gasping for air after all the hard work you did for all of us, sweet child. 

Butterfly garden in Burgers' Bush Netherlands (invitation related to son's deployment)

Comfort after my dads funeral 2021 

Sick Pigeon makes recovery

Nov 2021 I saw this young pigeon sitting under my balcony in the evening. It seemed unable to fly and was chased by a cat. I took it home. After a few days I took her by train to Amsterdam.   
I have picked up a few birds like a coot who had been hit. They all never came back because they quickly put animals to sleep. At Billie pigeons receive all the care and love. So to her I brought the pigeon.

Queen Billie Savage, the queen of the pigeons, who calls them skypuppies. She loves them like Rutzen loves sharks. She is able to instill a love for them and make them visible how they are, peaceful birds that need to be taken care of too. 

Sept 2021 dropped off a piggyback stowaway at a garden center 

Another dumped creation of God

During a walk in July 2021 I came across this sweet child. We exchanged hugs and I started to wonder if she had a house. The moment I was about to start a campaign to take her in if she didn't have a home, I found out that there are people who take care of her. Among others, by the new resident of a house whose people had left the animal behind..

In Dec 2021 I finaly saw her new mum. A wonderful old lady

butterflies are playful and like to pose for the picture is my experience

So many loveable creatures in so many forms

Jeckyll Draeckendreck was also on my son's birth announcement. He was also family

my aunts little pumpkin

Little angel that was dumped. They did not succeed in catching the animal but when I drove by with the car I stopped, I opened the door and could take her on my lap. The animal found a wonderful life at my mums. 

United by the love for churros - 2021

Noa & the Ocassional Balcony Snail Friends

While snailies always get water and food, after Noa's arrival Noa would get a balcony snail as guest as long as the guest wanted to stay.

The last guest was Clarabella, her house was broken so I patched it up.

Noa Piccolo

Noa loved to bathe.


Joined Noa after I patched her up on the balcony where I found her april 2020. She left in april 2021

My buddy Max

Never met a rooster as social as Max. We were pals from the first second we saw each other.
Like love at first sight. The wild cranky rooster was cuddly and sweet with me and I was crazy about him.  I will always love you Max.

The animals were outside in an industrial area. One day when I was not there they were all caught and gassed by the municipality. 

His Family  

Max his daughter, it was cool seeing her growing up. She and her baby were killed as well, since I never saw them again.  

My friend the one-eyed rooster

He prefers to eat it out of your hand. If I had a yard, he'd come home with me and get a pirate eye patch. With its beautiful feathers just like the Puss in Boots fairy tale.

I always made the blanket in the elf houses from the feathers I picked up from him (still have a bag full)

09-02-2022 After having enjoyed him for at least 2 years, I seized the opportunity when he could be placed somewhere. There he will pass his old age, with shelter every day, rest, no stray dogs or cars, not to be chased away, in a yard with other animals such as elderly hens and food every day. Love is also letting go. Love is wishing the other the very best and acting accordingly.

Here he was pecking grain in the box. of course I told him what would happen and that I love him very very much, so not to worry. I look forward seing him in heaven when time comes.

Arrived at the peaceful yard where he will spend his old age, among females. No more storm for this child, but love and security.

Wasp friendship

2015 A wasp came by every single day for at least 2 weeks a work. I found out quickly due to his behaviour that they recognize you by your scent as they come close and sniff you, and that they tell their mates/brothers? about you who will greet you too. My colleague said it was not the same wasp that returned each day. I said he was. Then the wasp stopped coming. After a few days I looked outside the window, only to notice someone had squashed my friend when they had closed it. 

Found a child half paralyzed on my way home. Took her to the vet but while waiting for the animal ambulance she died. She was poisoned. The jackdaw bird can live up to 15 years. They are monogamous and stick together for a lifetime 

I don't forget any of my friends, no matter how small. They all walk around in my heart.

sitting on my lap during dinner

Little children of God

These two chickens came from a place where I worked, they were kept in the dark as entertainment for guests. But they would be locked up in the dark in a small cage during most of the days and nights. One of the two got sick and died (at the vet), and the black one came home with me. The chickens were not replaced.

I once sat at the table and asked if the children had been liberated. A colleague looked up strangely. She means whether the chickens have already been released, said the cook. 

Staying with me at home for the night and her first steps outside with other chickens. 

Never alone. I made the reservations. If a customer indicated that 3 people wanted meat and 1 was vegetarian and wanted fish, I always wrote back: so 1 cow meat, 1 pork, 1 chicken meat and 1 fish meat?..A fish is not a plant. 

Tommy the Cat & the Rat

One day I got home and saw a cat attacking a rat. I ended the fight, saved the rat and gave the cat treats.
The poor thing's ear was damaged, but after getting bread he quickly restored in spirit. I ended up going home on one boot because the other made him a fine home. Now Tommy turned out to be a neighbourhood cat. He would since that day, wait for me every day for treats. A year later I found out Tommy crossed the rainbow bridge

Muscovy ducks 

The male Muscovy duck has been alone along the waterfront for at least 2 years. 

One day I spotted 5 km away, a female Muscovy duck sitting alone along the water's edge every time. The local residents know the male duck (pic above) and gave him the name Jaap.  I made a poster with a call for more information about the female. When she's alone, I'll introduce them to each other was my plan

Nobody responded (summer 2021).  

Jan 2022. The female is no longer alone and a foundation is busy looking to find a nice home for Jaap

 "Can you take care of the pets?" But of course!

when I babysit your kids, you get them back spoiled and obese heehee 

Wounded Butterfly 2021

29-03-2021 I saw a butterfly in the middle of the road, to prevent her from being hit, I wanted to take her off the road. But she just sat there and climbed onto my hand. No matter what flower or bush we encountered, she wanted to stay put, so I took her home walking with her on an open hand. I put her on a plant at home and quickly went to the store to get some fruit.

Then I picked up the bee hotel from the basement that had been put away recently because the balcony is being repaired. To my great surprise, bees kept flying out. So they had hibernated in the hotel (I feel like a proud mother). After I had put the bees and hotels out I went looking for Clarabella, the balcony snail that has been here since April last year, with the plaster on her torn house. I found her eating my books again.    

The little child died the next day. The window was open, the day warm, but she did not fly away. She was deteriorating in front of my eyes. The last hour, oh that dreadful last hour I have seen it way too often, the fight for life. Holding on. Every being no matter how small wants to live.   

This little bee I found on the road 03-2020, also did not make it in the end. And last week I had taken a coot off the road that was hit by a car(guessing). I could still see his wing move. Afterwards, the animal welfare department informed me that the fracture could not be healed and the animal was put to sleep. I had seen a partner waiting for him / her outside by the lake. heartbreaking.


City pigeons defecate 14 kilos per year per pigeon. I lured those pigeons away from my balcony and feed them daily  5 meters away. I'm not going to scrub my balcony for half an hour a day because the other being can't control his anus. 

My sons dog who crossed the bridge. I would always get several thingies so he could choose which one to eat first

The toad was surrounded by ten crows when I saw them. Gave the crows nuts and placed him where he could hide. Added him a crown for the picture because I like all things cute and he just ain't

Found a pigeon on my way home and took the bird home. Injury unknown, died shortly after I came home.

My father was sick, I was cleaning the house. A cat kept me company. I fed her and soon she took her children too

The father of the family was always watching. Within a few days the whole family was visiting and there was happiness. Until one morning I heard the mother cry very loudly. I came out and saw one of her kids with the guts out, dead. As if something had taken a bite out of her belly. All the other children were gone and daddy cat was gone too. The mother was inconsolable.

Dumped Chickens

Dec 2021 They were shivering and closing their eyes all the time in the middle of the road. So I decided to take them home so that they could die peacefully there if necessary without hunger and cold (thought they were dying - they weren't). 

But at 6 o'clock the next morning there appeared to be 1 rooster, and it crowed incessantly. Then a chicken started to crow too. So they had to go back. It's okay to cackle, but you could hear them in the gallery very loudly. Within a night chickens were dumped again.It's a place where chickens and rabbits are often dumped, but this time it's about hand-tamed purebred chickens. There is a Christian family that has a company in one of the business premises that has built a pen for the animals and provides them with water and food. Everything minimal because you don't want to attract rats.

Because these animals are so sweet and tame I kept looking for someone who could house them. Finally I found Sandra from Comité Dierennoodhulp who put me in touch with Trini from Zwerfkip En Zo. Trini came to pick them up hardly a day later, bless her soul. Now the babies will have a better life. 

I was amazed how tame they really were 

thanks to Trini, this chicken dump is also monitored now