The Spartans, the Shaolins, so the strong ones I admire. But also the many intellectuals whose works I like to read, such as Einstein, Tolstoy, Socrates, Hippocrates, Pythagoras, Tesla, Twain, all did not eat meat (dead bodies). I like talking to people who are compassionate, who are not morally corrupt and selfish. Who can control themselves.
Decided to remove my personal website dating from 2008 and added it here.
Things so I won't forget. And to honor God (testimonies).
Be one less person harming animals: 👉 vegankit.com👈
🌱Leef rechtvaardig. Kies plantaardig🌱
Jesus said I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm - neither hot nor cold - I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
Protect the weak!
(June 2019) - it's always gratitude that fills the heart when watching the birth of a new day.
I found God here when I was a kid. Or He found me, I only remember I have never been alone.
Dream when I was a child ~ dreaming of a rainbow waterfall in the clouds. This dream occurred when I was a small child. I dreamed that I was on a day out with the school, all children were there. We were walking among hills and I enjoyed nature while the other kids were playing around and talking. At some point I isolated myself from the others by climbing on a big hill while my eyes captured the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my dreams - it was magical. In the air there was a huge cloud, heart shaped. In the middle of the heart water fell down and the water had the colors of the rainbow. I felt as I had been looking at it for ages when I woke up, the whole dream I had been gazing at this magnificent sight.
Angel After Prayer
2008 ~ I've seen an angel (Split, Podstrana) after request in prayer (I was afraid), a huge white (as in light, all light) serene feature, medium long hair, 'dress', male, bare feet, that covered me with its huge wings. As soon as I realised that what I afraid was from wasn't something I could confront as it was not from this planet, I had asked specifically and directly to God to send help/an angel.
I was alone and slept in 'my room' on the ground floor, everything was locked. I woke up to the rattling of the windows, as if someone wanted to go in or check the windows to see if they were closed properly. I felt anxious. But now I heard it on every window frame, and I started to think someone was trying to get inside. The heavy materials are at the door, where is the axe, what should I take to run towards and confront...I thought.
Then I heard someone walking down the hall, so it was inside. I thought that is my father, until I suddenly heard him cough on the 1st floor, which was also locked with a key. So he didn't sleep on the ground floor. Now I was really scared because it felt evil and I knew this energy. That energy is not from here. It was not a human I could confront so I prayed to God to send me an angel to help me.
The fear was replaced by intense serenity when within a second, this (± 2 meter) white angelic figure stood in the room. It came towards me, sat on my bed and bowed, covering me with its wings. It was the last time I was afraid, now God only I "fear".
Years after my son made a picture of me in the room in the morning, before we went to the beach. Where the angel stood a blue glow was shown. No flash was used, no light was on, no light from outside.
Split is a very special city. The soil is soaked with blood of the saints. The biggest persecutions ever in history against Christians took place there.
He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
2019 Short video during prayer, was checking if my effort was appreciated since I was so tired
1 Chronicles 16:11 Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually
Prayer on top of mountain
Picture taken in 2016. My favorite spot 6 o'clock in the morning to pray on the top of the moutain behind the home I grew up in. Mountain top is reachable after 2 hours climbing. In 2018 I went with my son there to pray, and like in a fairy tale, the fields were covered with hundreds of butterflies around us. Since 2016 I have asked up there to harvest because this world sick as shit. I prayed for war.
Since 2020 the prayer has been consistent asking for God to come and see what they do to his children.
2021> I'm content. It will only get worse. The planet is sick. No more compromise.
practicing left and right hand
Nehemiah 4:17-18 "....each labored on the work with one hand and held his weapon with the other. And each of the builders had his sword strapped at his side while he built.."
Luke 11:21 When a strong man, fully armed, guards his own house, his possessions are safe.
Love the #MeToo movement. Every single woman has been harrassed by men. And its always the married ones, the ugly ones, the ones it even makes you frustrated to react but you must or they wont leave you alone with their whore eyes and 'innocent' 'funny' comments. I always responded with anger, but its tiresome. To cover their whoredom and failure they start telling people you are frustrated or mentally ill etc. Even poor Joan of Arc was harrassed by male whores when she was imprisoned, and because she wanted to fight them off in pants and not in a skirt, this made her even more hated by the elite and lead to her death. Gallantry, have not seen it at least 23 years.
Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
Veganism is the only right way, because, for example, for milk and eggs, the animals are also mistreated and they also end up in slaughter. Being a vegetarian is not enough
Gods being is not even treated as a living creature but as garbage. Demons in human bodies laugh about it, while others look away, making them just as guilty.
'With the measure you use, it will be measured to you - and even more." - Jesus Christ.
Yes a vegan could die too because the pandemic is not an imaginary one. But, vegans are less likely to get severely ill from coronavirus, according to a new study.
The research - which took place across six countries
(under 3,000 health professionals took part) - showed that those who had
plant-based diets were 73% less likely to develop severe symptoms from
COVID-19. The findings were published in The BMJ Nutrition, Prevention
"Trust Your Doctors" ... sure
None of those pro-vaccine pushers are vegans. They command you with underchins, meat bellies and dairy tits.
The Hippocratic Oath is an oath of ethics historically taken by physicians. Its principles are held sacred by doctors to this day: as an important step in becoming a doctor, medical students must take the Hippocratic Oath.
The "Father of Medicine" Hippocrates "Let food be thy medicine and medicine be thy food" did not eat meat! And yes, fish is meat too, it's not a plant. And no, plants do not feel pain. Plants lack brains, a central nervous system, and anything else that neuroscientists know to cause setience.
How much of these by the pharmatical industry paid assholes today eat no meat?.. And I am pissed. They sort of promised that lots of people would die, yet everywhere I look I still see cockroaches. See, the media and gov can never be trusted.
Almost 24 million test animals were killed in the EU in 2017. How many do you think were killed for covid vaccin?
Animal experiments can be eliminated without substitution, because human data have long been available, or because their results are completely irrelevant to human health. No less than 87.5% of biomedical research is inefficient and wasteful.
"Trust Your Government"... sure
#SmashEgo #Empty the Tanks #End the Cage Age
Your own choice
Matt 13:9 (or Mark 4:23) Whoever has ears, let them hear.
I never have and never will try to convince anyone to follow Christ. I'm not here to hold your hand, you must make your own choice.
1 Corinthians 16:14 Let all that you do be done in love.
I have said for years now that males till age 39.5 can join the Foreign Legion, even to suitors I do so not trying to emasculate a man; I do so because every male has the opportunity to become a professional warrior. There you need no prior experience if you have none, and it can reactivate those who once did something like a prior few years army before. You get a paycheck, a redefined skillset and valuable contacts for life. I want our sons to be strong and to secure the safety of our grandchildren.
My aim is for you to be safe and fully capable of defending the weak.
2017 was the year in which I decided to join the Foreign Legion myself so (5 yrs) I would be able to help my soldier son when needed. Alas women could not apply at all. (pic left taken in Dalmatia in 2017). Bless Mika, I thought she would live for many more years.
People have not the slightest clue I pray persistent every single day, day in day out. My celibacy means not having a desire for a horny prince, but to long deeply (non sexual) for the touch of God and the hug of an angel.
1 John 4:2 Testing the Spirits
Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God. For many false prophets have gone out into the world.
By this you will know the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God.
This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and which is already in the world at this time.... Jesus spent time with activists (apostles; teachers, DO-ERS). Jesus was not a selfish turd only looking out for his own family.
Philippians 3:19 Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is set on earthly things.
My buddy, the Holy Spirit, is always around me (took him to the beach that day)
May 30, 2021 ~People are concerned about paying rent/mortgage, their landlord or bank while they should be paying rent to the bos of bosses, the one that owns all. They care and talk only about money. entertainment. possessions. relationships. They breathe his air, walk on his soil and came out of his Creation and what does He get? The devil made people run around like a hamster on a running wheel going nowhere but hell. This life is short, and satan made them focus on this short life, making them blind for what will come after that. My profound grief is becoming bearable because I asked and am receiving the spirit of understanding.
"2 Corinthians 12:2-4 I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago was caught up to the third heaven".
A very strange day with many incidents, people have lost their minds due to covid. I achieved what I have hoped to achieve with martial arts for many years today, 12-12-2020.
Be like Shep.
(when you visit a 2000 year old well only to find a hippie fest built around it. Chalice is for new age escapists what Medugorje is for roman catholics and Disneyland for children. - at Chalice Well Glastonbury in 2019)
I watch the sky, day and night...
day and night
I built my healthy looking body upon smoking a lot of shag, 24/7 coffee, daily morning ice cream (winter, summer, always) and loads of candy and cakes for 2 decades. Hardly meat so I was practically a vegetarian for 20 years at least before going vegan. All the bitches who return to meat eating ways crying they missed something need to learn how to cook. You go vegan because you love animals, and you do not want to harm the innocent.
Favorite martial art memories
1st lesson kyokushinkaikan karate(2008), the reply on my question what comes after white belt. "Red belt with white dots". I must confess that the one inch punch was the most impressive. My heart stopped and skipped a beat. Pencak silat cimande (2012), after finally having done a set with ease. Big smile above you: now 50 more. Ninjutsu(2021), why did I not attend class last time. I said, 31 degrees, ninja's need shadow. "Excuses. Ninja's ARE the shadow", accompanied with mean pinch. Hilarious.
I don't have many possessions that are dear to me, but this pass still is. I had suffered a leg injury (shinbone fracture) from secretly training without shin guards for which I had to take a break. During that break I ran into Silat and fell in love right away. Silat offered so much more like hardness training but will always love karate too.
Fun fact; both vains as ani (anisocoria) are triggered when I get angry, which is hilarious
pull up bar made by my uncle
Selfie 2019. I was not wearing a hat and no dress but a tanktop with short trousers. Nobody stood behind me. Weird shadow huh, looks medieval.
Welcome to my world
Angels are sent to watch over us Psalm 91:11, 2 Chronicles 16:9, Proverbs 15:3, Heb 12:1
Nothing is as it seems. The most hideous looking bum (homeless, not showered for ages) I ever seen
(in 2001) was also the most humble man I had ever seen with a big faith.
A priest ((svecenik) in 2019*) seemingly friendly
was a lusty whore in disguise full of lies. The bum was ignored by all
people and the priest is popular, you see this constantly. That is why
the most favorite costume of angels is that of a bum.
*(a filthy blob named Tom(o) from Austria who kept harassing me. When we virtually met I spoke about faith, while he kept saying I needed a man and about his sexual dream, I later on learned he had even lied to his own family about the ordeal, once again focusing on my relationship status rather in my faith. This whore I blocked on FB would make another account and started liking my stuff on FB again)
Had asked one of my colleagues from when I worked pt at a medieval themed restaurant in 2014 to share her sandwich.
If people can't even acknowledge that creatures like animals they can see are living beings - you can even communicate with ants, size does not matter - then why would they communicate with living beings their eyes cannot see.
19-02-2021 It's just the two of us now
Magical July 2021
He pretends to be a star but he isn't. He can go up and in and out.
Jeremiah 8:7 Yea, the stork in the heaven knoweth her appointed times; and the turtledove and the crane and the swallow observe the time of their coming; but my people know not the judgment of the Lord
26-07-2021 at 02.00 in the night
I'm happy, I have been waiting 40 years. Ogen gericht naar boven.
No oil lamp but soy candle that burns in the night on my balcony (Exodus 27:20, Lev 24:1-4) "Therefore keep watch, because you do not know the day or the hour." (Matthew 25:1-13)
Candles burn the whole night and evening, each candle represents a prayer for a cause or someone. Of course included the main candle, the gratitude to God.
Lovely August 2021
in love with my own hairdo
slowely but surely coming back 21.08.2021
vegan homemade pastry breakfast
19-08 John 14-16 Jesus promised to send the Holy Spirit to be with us permanently as our Helper (assistent, comforter, standby). I am grateful.
Cats hear better than humans, butterflies have better eyesight than humans, doves/pigeons are incredibly loyal, more than most humans. I cannot ask for beter friends.
Gods children are kind to me.
my one eyed buddy
Rev 4:3 "And the one who sat there had the appearance of jasper and ruby. A rainbow that shone like an emerald encircled the throne."
John explains the vision and tells us that the Spirit of God appeared with the likeness of precious jewels. He also indicates that an emerald rainbow circled God's throne. An emerald is green and symbolizes life. The rainbow first appeared to Noah after the Flood as a token of God's promise. The emerald rainbow around God's throne likely indicates that His promise of eternal life is guaranteed
My top 5 fav books
Sun Tzu Art of War (see also page 103 of book Strategic Weapons of our Warfare by Elsie Clark), BoF Rings Miyamoto Musashi, Wen Tzu Lao Tzu, Bible and Hagakure. Tsunetomo says don't be a bitch, you live you live, you die you die. Bible says don't be a coward, have no fear. So says Musashi. Every day is good. Be vigilant always. And be aware. Apathy is just as much a sin (in your ear whispering demon) as cowardice sloth greed defeatism etc.
The greatest among you shall be your servant, said Jesus.
And just like Jesus or a Musashi, you accept death.
Meekness is not weakness
Two are stronger than one, but do not forget that the devil attacks when you are alone.
And you know what, you will not be betrayed by an outsider but by someone standing next to you.
Fact: if you actively stand up for good you will be attacked regularly physically, spiritually and mentally : TAKE PRIDE IN PERSECUTION
2 Cor 12:10 Therefore I take
pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions,
in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. Matthew 10:38 Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Take up your cross!
Mockery - Luke 23:11
Poverty and tribulation -Revelation 2:9
Imprisonment - Mark 6:17, Daniel 6:1-28
Torture - Isaiah 50:6, Acts 14:19
Death - Genesis 4:8
Threats - Acts 4:21, 4:29
Exile - Revelations 1:9
Persecution - 2 Timothy 3:12
If you serve the Lord, you become a target of Satan's envy. Satan will put you into endless and severe testing. Satan's attacks will never cease because you are shaking the foundations of hell.
Fun fact: the - samurai like - scorpio surrounded by fire will sting itself to death to avoid a painful demise in the flames.
On one occasion, during the reign of King David, when the Angel of the Lord is about to destroy Jerusalem, God has to tell it to put his sword away. And when Jesus was arrested on the night before the crucifixion, one of the disciples grabbed a sword and sliced off the ear of one of the perpetrators. Jesus told him to put away the sword.
Angels were involved in the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah (Gen 19:1, 12-13) and God used angels in bringing the plagues on Egypt (Psalm 78:43, 49). I like the angels, just as I like saint warriors. God blessed a skilled army, Judges 20:15-17 'all these were men of war', and Christ is a bad ass warrior.
I had a friend once. Who went to war and had such injuries that he had pain every day. To whom sleeping was not a place of peace but of flashbacks. His body eventually gave up due to the effects of the war and the soul went to heaven. Then I have a friend with the voice of an angel that would never be able to kill an innocent animal (and now also does not eat animals). But killed humans - close combat, because there was no other option. Another veteran, a war angel. High standards in morals, a faith that cannot be shaken. Men of glory, the old school noble men. It is them, and like them, and ancestors who bled for us, who I remember and honor when a turd stands in front of me that does not believe in his Creator but will ridicule those who believe in something more than fucking around, consumin and 'enjoying life' when others suffer.
Such creature spilt no blood, defended no soul. Lives without any honor. Sleeps peacefully in his bed. Like the demon worshippers who only enter an area to eat everything bare like grasshoppers and multiply like cockroaches.
Therefore, out of respect, appreciation and love, I will never lower my standards. I always keep in mind the warriors of the past, of the present, and of the future. Every hidden tear that their soul shown me I carry in my heart.
Majestic September 2021
The television was rarely turned on, but nowadays it stays off completely(you can't even watch National Geographic or whore/glutton related commercials are displayed). I started learning languages again, French (remembering), Italian and Indonesian. Having said this I see no difference between the whores on tv and my whore neighbours walking around in black robes pretending to be pious while their excistence is nothing more than lay around in their homes with open legs to birth more children, them not working, their deadbeat husbands not working and all praising their demons for having found such a willing host to parasite on. Even cockoaches can give birth, capiche? If they would raise their sons like men instead of swines, they would be civilised and not harrass women. To be completely honest, the only reason why some are alive is because it's forbidden to kill. My hands are tied (by obedience and loyalty that is), God has a plan and only defence is allowed. If I would get a free pass my feet would bathe in the blood of the wicked. I would have zero problem sending them back to hell.
With a clean body (no cigs, no alcohol, 9 years celebate, vegan), a calm heart and clear mind I should be able to become better than I have ever been before.
bought my little nephew this. I think its hella cool. if the low IQ of the taliban multiplies in Europe (and it will), how will a man defend himself? Hit them with a pink unicorn bag or a disciplined black boot in da face. I see no brightness in this future so my only wish is for the little ones to become strong as lions
The hardest thing about being vegan isn't stopping eating delicious dishes you've known all your life, the life of a child is worth to me more than a 10 minutes meal.. But adjusting the swear words. Because pigs are not dirty and dogs are better than people. And the realization that people around you just don't care.
21.09.21 I called my Father as loud as I could from the depth of my soul. Dad, bless my robe and fingers for what I might do to killers of the innocent.
dropped off a piggyback stowaway at a garden center
I leave the month behind with greater sadness than before. People whom you think get it, turn out to be even more indifferent than you thought and when I finaly did share a (spiritual) story to someone and provide pictures, you get laughed at. As if I photoshop my pictures. The greed the laziness the arrogance it is so present in people they crush my soul. At this point I feel only being burned alive would match the flesh with the soul within.
A shop assistant offered me 2 hot sandwiches. They stood too long, he said, I could have them for free. I didn't like them so I thanked them, but when he said he would throw them away I took them for the birds. But when I walked out of the store, I saw exactly 2 homeless people. One dug his arm deep into the bin. I ran over and gave the sandwiches. What a coincidence. This made me think. So I sent an application to volunteer with the Salvation Army
3 Oct, as I spoke about me being volunteer for the salvation army. I can't think of a better organisation to help people. The people everybody ignore. I would love to shine a light in their hearts. If I get rejected by this army too, the world truly did deemed me unfit. Which is so funny because the animals and saints vouch otherwise.
I saw this young pigeon sitting under my balcony in the evening. It seemed unable to fly and was chased by a cat. I took it home. Neighbors said the bird had been wandering for two days. But help no, 'because there's football on TV'. After a few days brought her to Amsterdam by train, where the bird was lovingly taken care of by Bille the pigeon queen and receives medical care. Bless her heart and that of a gallant young man that, without knowing so, warmed my heart. Of course I thanked him but he will never know that the little gesture of kindness just meant a lot.
15.10 Woke up at 4.30am to a nightmare of eggs being smashed. The mother birds had been shot and kicked. They frantically tried to protect their nest. I turned on the computer and signed up to volunteer for hunt saboteur
Madonna at age 47. physically a role model, just like Gérald Michiara is
Steady October 2021
Liever sterf ik een gruwelijke dood dan leven met een onrechtvaardige ziel. ONACCEPTABEL is dierenleed en het wegkijken ervan, en onverbiddelijk is mijn standpunt erin.
2 Oct My tv broke. Not getting it fixed. Listening to Enya.
05.10 listening to Chris Isaak
Zelfs Mike Tyson heeft gevonden hoe mellow je wordt en dat gewoon fijn is, zeker met trainen ga je gewoon door en blijft lekker. Bob Marley had zijn ding, ieder de zijne. Manna was meer dan een paddestoeltje.
A contact sent me a message. Many words, while I prefer to the point telegram style. I scan the message and see bullpoop. You don't get it he wrote. OK, shorten the message. He was not able to, he kept sending me messages and I realised I was not talking to a man. I was talking to the depths of his dark hole, his anus. He was talking with his ass. I was talking to two flapping buttcheeks. So I stopped responding. I cherish my time and did 100 sit-ups instead.
as agreed upon, pooping at the neighbours, not on my side
and so ends the month Oct. No reply from orgs so I collected activists myself and will be doin what I wanted to do myself. You are the ALF. You are a salvation army. Everything begins and ends with you, your willpower. Changing the world starts with you. Not by waiting on others.
my daily (passing by guest) dose of hugs and face licks
Praise the Lord for my boy. We got the same humor and dislike pussies. Always rational, objective, no tears and complaints but solutions and deeds and always room for a chuckle. And when I tell him something, he knows who Simo Häyhä is.
I keep thinking about how many homeless people there are. How can one sleep peacefully in his warm bed when others are hungry and cold unprotected so close to home. Met a strong woman this month, Slavic blood so you know; with the same caring hand with which the biscuit is lovingly baked, an evildoer can get a fist in his face. She is hella lot like me. Her tradition is baking cookies, so we're going to bake them together for the homeless and find them and hand them out.
Ik doe mee: www.aangiftehugodejonge.nl net zoals ik me in 2019 (als particulier) aansloot bij de aangifte van dierenrechtenorganisaties tegen Grapperhaus voor zijn uitspraken tijdens de ALV van POV op 25-11-2019. Dit soort schorem denkt boven iedereen verheven te zijn.
Petitie 'De sportbranche moet aangemerkt worden als essentiële sector' natuurlijk getekend.
Meanwhile my son continues to impress me. I like many books, like Dostojevski, Tolstoy, fairy tale books when I was small. I have many favs and this is also the case in the practical street wisdom genre: Feral's Hitman(chapter 8 reminded me of the unabomber), Iceman, Andy McNab, my son expressed interest and reads them. That is very good. Deployment coming up again. I have deep faith in my son. That's why I don't have that fear that others have. Plus I consider time an illusion.
Started the month on water, moderate coffee and green and with daily breathing exercises.
Thanks to a loving organization, the dumped sweet children also have a safe home. we went to catch them on December 31st
when it's winter but you insist on wearing your heels: leg warmers. careful
Instead of the annual sadness that I step into december with I had a nice dream where I was basking in the sun in a speedboat on the Adriatic sea with Marilyn Manson. Poor sucker should have made it work with Dita
one-on-one with the gatekeeper 2nd Christmas Day
I started (building to>) practicing 10,000 the same exercise as Bruce Lee said. And am increasing the other numbers, Mike Tyson did everything not tens but thousands of times. I have tasted strenght. I want more of it.
How my 2021 Christmas card was received...
Glutton has no mercy, here is a Croat celebrating the birth of Christ with the death of an animal. I was sent this, to provoke and mock.
No matter which fact you serve, which horrible footage you show, which bible verse you mention, they laugh and serve glutton anyway.
To love Christ is to sacrifice, to abstain. It's okay not to know, but to know and then mock is evil. If all I say is not worth listening to, then it's best to part ways isn't it.
Greed made sure I have no home to return to, and now Glutton made sure I don't even want to. Matt 10:14 If anyone will not welcome you or listen to your words, leave that home or town and shake the dust off your feet.
(Emmanuel means "God with us" and is a name for Jesus.) Psalm 145:9 The LORD is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made
Isaiah 65:2-4 ... narod koji me neprestano izaziva pred licem, žrtvujući u vrtovima i dajući prinose na ciglama; koji jedu svinjsko meso, a juha od ukaljanog mesa je u njihovim posudama
Everyone is Christian until you ask them questions. Like how many animals Noa had to take in the ark. Then they say per 2. That's right, per 2. God didn't say, per pair and extra to slaughter. If allowing animal suffering equals animal love for them, then I fear this love they have for me
My approach is that I can be judged. For with whatever judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with whatever measure you measure, it will be measured to you. For the sins I commit ignorantly I ask forgiveness. I trust in God's justice. If He thinks I should go to hell, fine then I'll be there clubbing pedophiles and animal abusers. And if my place is in heaven then I am grateful and I also want to continue there what I seem to be doing well. But I will never say 'we are all sinners' just as an excuse to move on to continue doing what you know is evil. I ask you to be kind and fair to my mother. To my father. To a child. To a homeless person. To an animal. I never asked anyone to be kind and fair to me. But people don't even see that.
vatra gori u meni, tako smo mi rodeni
I am so dissapointed with the outcome of the pandemic that I am full of built up frustration. So I signed up for Muay Thai (aiming to start when the qr code bullshit is out of sight) which I will combine with what I already do. My son left for a half year, deployment. We agreed to have our picture taken upon return in the best physical condition. It angers me to hear obese persons giving you advice about health and couch potatoes about combat tactics. It boils my blood thru the roof so much that I am surprised no spontaneous combustion has taken place.
The soldiers have to pay for good material themselves again because the political donkeys like the troll waste the money on nonsense.
And by veteran I mean a real veteran with decades of experience like Gérald Michiara, not a turd who only wore a camouflage suit or who has barely seen 5 years of active combat service. So let alone a woman whose only battle experience has been how to fix her make up.
In the news: Parcel deliverer loses eye after being assaulted out of nowhere (unknown man attacks with hammer). Man pushes woman on track of Brussels metro. Man stabbed in the face on train by another passenger. I may seem cheerful but training is nothing funny to me. It is a serious preparation for what I encounter on the street or think I will encounter. I have no respect for yes sayers and ass lickers. They don't save anyone's life. Not even their own.
Amazing experience with my son at Skydive Rotterdam "The Flying Dutchmen" - June 2021
Afterwards vegan treat, of course. I did not remove mask because I like to be comfy.
My shimmering dream
Everything is Connected
One of the stories in the childrens book I wrote in 2012 is about a friendship between a child and it's vehicle.. (everything is energy/connected)
Butterflies of Hope
Did you know that insects have the best vision in the entire animal world? and of the insects the butterflies have the best vision?
September 2013 (4th floor in Delft)- butterfly flied in when I lost hope. Week later another butterfly at work, open window on 3d floor in the city. Since then many butterflies came along. Posing for pictures.
Nobody is as badass as Jesus is. The fiery rider, with flames of Justice blazing thru his eyes.
I am smitten with Jesus, I really am. Always was, always will be. Nobody is as badass as he is.
The Rider on the White Horse Rev 19:12 Then I saw heaven standing open, and there before me was a white horse. And its rider is called Faithful and True. With righteousness He judges and wages war. He has eyes like blazing fire, and many royal crowns on His head. He has a name written on Him that only He Himself knows. He is dressed in a robe dipped in blood, and His name is The Word of God.... Meine Ehre heißt Treue
The more you sacrifice your own sins and wishes, the closer you get to God.
Your wallet cannot be full when others have nothing to eat.
The body is a temple and the Holy Spirit needs a clean house to live in, so the stomach cannot be
tainted with meat that depends on the slaughter of innocent blood (when not survival but glutton!)
No dairy built up by pus, screams and tears. No soda. No alcohol. No cigs. No slutties.
And with no slutties I mean I have faced sweet temptation, but did not act upon (contemplated for 7 years and pursued none). So not like pervert Gandhi.
Temptation: like stopped smoking as promise to God (aah I loved smoking, it was delicious), and all of a sudden I got me a new neighbour who speaks Croatian and every single day offered me a cig, pleading I should take one. Lord knows I wanted to, but I cannot. I am bound.
God is jealous
"Thou shalt have no other gods before Me" is one of the Ten Commandments.
God is a jealous God (Exodus 34:14, Exodus 20:5).
Now let me give an example. You are married. You have a happy marriage and your wife would do everything for you. On the walls of your home there are pictures. Of you and your wife, of the children she gave birth to. Your children. Now imagine you being such a dipshit to fancy another woman and to put her face up on the wall. Is that not, ungratefulness? Is that truly the respect you would give your wife? Same goes for God. Stop putting pictures of losers on the wall. It pisses him off.
Most think God is some hippie and it's all about love. That is partly true, this actually goes hand in hand with holiness truth and justice. God is a righteous God. A Father. And like with earth fathers, when we were small, if we did something wrong we feared to get a can of whoop ass. Now if you have a living relationship with the living God, then you feel the same fear when you even slightly think you might do wrong. I do not want to anger my Father. He does not deserve disobedience either. No parent does, therefore one of the commandments is to honor your father and mother. I fear my Father in a healthy way, as in I do not want Him to be ashamed of me, I do not want to dissapoint Him. I do not want to break his trust.
WWJD? Let me tell you what Jesus would do. Each time I went to HR I sat down at the table where it mattered the most. Where would Jesus want to sit down if he was there briefly, in a house where there is always joy and company and food, or there where there is nobody and barely any food.
My father 12.03.2021
My father did not use washing powder for the last decades as he said it polluted the sea. And when I told him Shakespeare (one of his fav writer, as well as mine) wrote McBeth when he experienced a pandemic (locked in his apartment in London for months), he wanted to read it. His eyes however were no good anymore, so he asked me to send audio which I did. And dad knew who Ivan Roso was. I miss my dad. I had often sent ipods with music, and in the nursing home he suddenly started talking to me in spanish (or french); but he was listening to Guevara's speech (to the UN) that I also put on it. He took us for walks in the woods every weekend, cooked delicious food, always took us to the latest movies and burgers afterward. The kitchen drawer was always full of sweets. He was sick, but not crazy. My first ten years were so impressive that I always remembered him as strong. I did not see that the rock itself needed a rock.
22.4.21 elke stap in huis is een stap naar diepe bedroevenis. elke stap is loodzwaar doch het licht wijkt geen seconde van mijn zijde. ik mis mijn meisje. het huis is vervuld met kaarsjes en gebeden
If you pay attention you see our guardian with us
02-05-2021 With my curtain closed I forgot it normaly was always open, and Mika would be on the right, and the dove outside on the left, only seperated by glass. Always looking at me when waking up. They make such a sweet sound.
3-05-21 new friend. used the soft vest Mika took her last breath on as pillow for a long time
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Much to your dismay, you find out that people don't mind that little BABIES are taken from their mothers (calves of the cows) for milk. That they are then slaughtered. That animals are kicked, tortured. Experience unprecedented suffering. That is against the will of God. That is Satanism. God can also use cruelty, and sometimes tenfold with anger. But always out of justice. I mean, eating veal? A baby? A baby sheep? Go ahead eat your own limbs or kids.
Whoever asks God for insight, gets it.
I feel I am drifting away from humans in general. It's like speaking the language that was lost, but nobody speaks it, nobody wants to speak it anymore. The communication with the other side becomes stronger.
The world becomes nothing but noise.
Blessed are the kind of heart that adopt an old being from a shelter instead of shopping for new breed ones
"Yesterday I adopted the oldest, sickest, and sorest shelter dog. I'll never forget his eyes. When I went into the cage he didn't even bother to look, he knew I wouldn't even see him.
Curling around the corner He'd accepted his fate. The volunteer said to me many times... Are you sure this one? Are you sure? YES! This is my dog. He opened the cage and 3 animals fell on me. I ran towards him, suddenly he looked at me as if he saw an angel... I hugged him and told him that now he'll be happy again. Then he sleeps in my lap... probably the first peaceful sleep he ever had. Give it a life. Give it a hug. They need us." From a dad who saved a soul. Credit: Animal Alternative Therapy
Company while in Prayer
2009 ~ requested company after prayer (I was 'depressed') in Wallonia.
I went for this walk (see also pic underneath this text) and asked God or his angels to accompany me. Depression fell upon me hard as I was confronted with earthly things (not because I wanted it, but because I saw it was admired by those I loved); someone who had everything, many friends, money and property, overall success. And I, getting older, still had 'nothing' of these worldly pursuits. He asked me 1 question only. He said, would you trade everything the person has for what you have?
I immediately said no and understood. Because these things were all worldly, and none had faith. So quickly the depression was gone and I started to enjoy the walk. As I was walking and talking I found this little church and felt the need to go inside. Inside, I felt the need to sit down but I was afraid I would break the chair so didn't. When I came home, only then I noticed that where my feelings were the strongest in that conversation, the lights are shown on the pics.
And do not think you can say to yourselves, 'We have Abraham as our father.' I tell you that out of these stones God can raise up children for Abraham.
And do not think you can say to yourselves, 'We have Abraham as our father.' I tell you that out of these stones God can raise up children for Abraham.
Do not tell me you are my family member by blood but you do wicked things. I might pick a stone over you.
1 Thessalonians 5:22 Abstain from every form of evil.
God is a righteous judge.
March 2020 - My son baffled me this weekend. He gave me some facts about a subject and as it turned out, he thought I had done something questionable. Well not questionable but simply dead wrong. I said no son, I did not and if you had done such, we would have a problem. If you doubt, always ask me. If I was wrong, correct me. If I would do something which is not righteous, I would lose the hotline with dad. Then I started to think.. I too.. have a doubt. And did not ask dad straight up. So I did.. see dad.. I was looking into cattle and what bothers me is that Lot offered his two virgin daughters.
>Yes, LOT DID. I didn't, Lot did. What did I say to Abraham when he asked me about sparing the life of the righteous people in Sodom?
You said if there are 40, I will not destroy it.
> If there are 30, I will not destroy it. If there are 10, I will not destroy it.
God's patience with sinning people explained
22 March 2020 - I wondered why God is so patient with bad people. Then I dreamed this. A shepherd walked through the fields with his sheep. This allowed them to graze where they wanted and he watched them. Then he saw a field of hungry wolves further on. The sheep in his vicinity were safe, so he did not have to worry about them. The sheperd called the sheep that stood at a distance and had separated themselves from the rest. Some were hit because they didn't want to turn around until they were on the safe side. The wolves would tear apart the sheep alive. He loved his sheep and he did not want that fate for them, even though they were stupid and stubborn. Then there were sheep so stubborn and selfish that the shepherd had to run after them. After tripping a few times, under the scratches, tired of shouting and running, and now far from his safe flock, the shepherd let's them go, shaking his head. They were torn apart by the wolves.
Human traditions still worth more than Gods word to bellies
30 March 2020 One short word for the traditionalists. Who care more for human traditions than Gods word. Boasting sitting in church on Sundays with fat bellies. I was not the first who noticed the same behaviour. St. Paul did so too. Who is it, that calls someone else 'Father'. Who baptize babies with water when Jesus or John touched not even one like that. Who is it who pray to the one not even a single sentence was devoted to by God or Jesus with request to pray to her? It is these who find it strange I care not much for birthdays (I tend to forget the year and age with people), because I am grateful for every day. Even in that, the bible stands on my side;
There are only three birthday parties described in the entire Bible. Absolute disaster occurred on each occasion! If God felt birthday celebrations were something positive and good, why wouldn't He have recorded one other account where something either good or positive happened? Yet, there is no such account.
Gift from God
1997 Birth of my son. When I was young I knew I would give birth to a boy with blond hair and blue eyes. Hence in his birthcard I had added the text 'predestined, so he came'. Long before it was official the baby would be a boy, I had enlisted him at a daycare center (you had to reserve a place beforehand) with his full name. I cried when I heard I was pregnant, from the hospital to the way home, and fell on my knees at home thanking God for this wonderful gift.
He has 3 first names, one of them means bear, another one means lion (French pronouncing) (+ of course one traditional Christian name). I read the bible to him every evening (and fairy tales), took him to the librairy every wednesday for 2 hours where we read books before taking him to martial arts class. Nothing more satisfying than a son applying for commandos whose namesake lead a skillfull army of God and (one of his other names) was named after Leon the Professional which also means.. lion.
2021 - Birdhouse for Fathersday. My (step)dad is a very good man. Always helps out, always caring. Two right hands. Gentle soul. His kindness is taken advantage off sometimes by others. The only reason why those people get away with it and are not tasing my fists is due to his kindness. I respect my father. I have 3 of them. The one by blood went to heaven, with the heavenly father.
Growing up as child
A few favorite memories of mine:
* the first time I saw the structure of a snowflake was in Austria
* I caught a seahorse when we were swimming in deep water (Croatia)
* every single morning very early, dolphins jumped out of the sea.
* I would put blackberries on thin sticks or whatever I found in the mountains and mum would make jam from it
* seeking pine cones and putting them in a bag - in the winter deep in the mountains while water was coming from the mountain, so fairy-tale like. Dad was chopping wood
* seeking gnomes in a forest in Austria my parents and grandmum had hidden
* selling figs on the beach as a kid
* age 7, becoming Tito's pioneer. Yeah it was commie Yugoslavia, but I don't remember the commie side. I remember loyalty towards the country and God.
* the many arguments with the nuns cause I had no patience
* Hair als golden as the sun, eyes as blue as the sea, feet as fast as mine, always ending up at the same time on the finish line. The first boy I ever fell in love with. Milan from a place named Kamen. I think I was about 6.
Don Poekie - Friendship Almost 20 years
In Loving Memory of my Son, best Friend, Family member and Angel ~my better half 1996 - 2015
Died 13 November 2015, burried 16 November along with a piece of my soul. Don Poek was given a short time to live. I prayed intensly, and in the evening in which I intensified my prayer a light showed up that has not left D.P. for 8 months. Until the day that it was his time to go. He went to get his wings and seek us the best bed to sleep in so we can watch birds together when I join him.
The picture above was taken right after the prayer on 5 April 2015 at 10:48 am. The angel watched over him day and night and left with him on 13 nov 2015.
After another Prayer, Michaela joined the household, she practically knocked on the door the next day.
the angel arrived was visible day and night and did not leave his side
We were like a married couple, slept next to each other. Night after night, year after year.
When a cat dies he wants to hide. Don Poek initially wanted too, but I kissed him crying and he came to me and we laid on the bed. He comforted me in his last hours in pain, until it was time. That is love.
He would sit on my pregnant belly and slide off as it was so big. From the little family created in 1996 he was the only one left living with me.
Michaela was loved, not just by me. I think God lent her to me. There was daily close and loving contact, not only between us, but also between her and the angel/spirit/God?
Michaela - Gift from God
Michaela joined the family Friday 13 March 2015. We met a week before, she was calling me while I was refilling the bird feeders on the balcony. She continued to call every day so after it was clear she had no 'owner' I invited her in. I gave her the name Michaela, feminine of Michael meaning gift from God. Because she came a day after a specific prayer.
This was the first time in my life I was angry at God, she being so sweet and the female version on Don Poek. I felt he wanted to give me her so I would forgive him for taking D.P., I mean, he can do everything so he could prolong D.P.'s life too if he wanted. Someone tossed Mika out like garbage, I found her toys and things a few doors away. But she was meant to be with us so all good. The devil will take care of the dumpers.
The first thing she did when she came into my house was walking straight to the bedroom, jumped on the bed and fell asleep on it. Don Poek also on the bed had big eyes, like what the fuck is this, hahaha.
She is the first cat ever that always responds when I ask something. It has nothing to do with the tone of voice or eye contact. I can't explain. Maybe we are morphed into one, we see and hear and respond on same things at the same time.
Mika has a lot of Friends who like to play with her
Exodus 14:24 During the last watch of the night the Lord looked down from the pillar of fire and cloud ... Exodus 19:16 On the morning of the third day there was thunder and lightning, with a thick cloud over the mountain.. Exodus 19:9 The Lord said to Moses, "I am going to come to you in a dense cloud
The magical view from my bedroom window
7 december 2020 - we are all awake till late
Listening to the rain
Mika and Noa Piccolo the snail
Noa died in July 2020.
Michaela's death 5.2.2021
My sweet child, my mini mummy, my lifeline, my Gift from God left this realm on 05.02.2021. Every single day in all those years together she woke me up by licking my face and hair. Sleeping next to me every single night, running towards the bed the cutey. She was so loveable and caring and intelligent. Her death struggle was so hard and sudden and rough.
here we spent so many happy hours together, looking out of the window, at the rain, the birds.
May God strike me with blindness if I did not see what I should have been able to see. I wish to see not if I don't see at all.
She was always by my side, we crafted, we chilled, if I worked out my legs she would sit on my stomach. She was my girl. She was the one who wanted me to stop smoking, who wanted me to act like a lady, who disliked the knife throwing and was a pure pacifist. She kept an eye on me by looking at me via the mirror. Who was unbelievably intelligent as she understood all I said (her own name directly, to which direction to walk etc), was grateful for each gift I brought her and if there was one word I could describe her, it was TRUST. It showed on a lot of ways, like me taking her to the vet without a cage, because she trusted me. I would say, you can let yourselves fall, I have you. And she would let herself fall in my arms. She was as beautiful as a snowflake and I told her this many times.
I caressed her in those bloody last moments and prayed My Father as this always calmed her down. It did so even in that terrible moment, she was so helpless. I prayed for none other than to ease her pain. I sought no angel (via God) to prolong her life as I did with Poek, I did not want more suffering. Nor do I want another companion, there is a cruel world out there with children suffering each day that never had a single moment of love because ego has given man the illusion that one animal deserves love and comfort and the other torture and death. They as we do share the same breath, and what will be done to them, will be done to us. Her name was trust, my name is loyalty. I was beyond happy with her and all the moments spent together were done in full awareness of being happy and grateful. I love you forever Mika.
17.02 Prayer. Mika's death was truly horrible, so helpless as she was and this has been nagging me. She was a gift, why did you allow her struggle. Why does my faith not make a difference, where were you to take away her pain.
I prayed thinking of Mika remembering how calm it always made her, even in those moments of struggle and opened the book, after which I made the picture where you can see the white light shown. There is written (exactly these few sentences) that Jesus himself suffered tremendously and he was Gods son. That even Judas did not know that all was in Gods plan. That satan too did not know. What do you know is asked. I said Mika was and is TRUST. Trust in the Lords ways. And yes, I continued, my name will always remain to be LOYALTY. I will never bow down for monstrosities. There is only ONE. Acts 4:12
The darker it gets the more light I see. In the end days more and more people even the elected ones will say look there is no God, how can God be so cruel, and they will curse the humans God created. This pleases satan.
After I buried her, I asked my mother's cat to watch over her grave. And this sweet cat, who avoids crowds, did something she never did before and never did again. She did something Michaela always did with me, she stretched out her paw to touch my face.
The very first moment we met
Athair Ar Neamh
22.02.2021 As I could not stop thinking about the loss of what can only be described as perfect love, the tremendous gratitude for having experienced it, my head filled with flashbacks of my child. One song kept playing in my head and I was surprised when I translated the words...... Athair Ar Neamh. Father in Heaven, God help us.Father in Heaven, God help me. My soul, my heart, my voicepraise to you, oh God. I praise you from day to day. I praise you night after night.The moon, the sun, the wind, praise be to you, oh God.
A month later my father died. He died in his sleep, whereas my angel had a horrific long death battle. Her body laid on the floor as if she was crucified. I wanted to pick her up but I was so afraid it would hurt even more so I laid down next to her. I fully believe this angel of God took the pain upon her.
It is hard to explain and you might think what kind of God lets his children suffer. But then think what his own Son went thru. I think Mika truly was God sent, due to all she did and has happened. And I think, God borrowed me this angel and took her back. Because I remember cuddling with Mika in 2020 and being grateful for this kind little creature and all of a sudden I heard a voice very clear saying very sweet Michaela's nickname. The deep soothing voice sounded coming from a very old and gentle man.
A woman that has a very strong relationship with God too said exactly this too, while I did not even mention my thoughts about the matter. Because 5 years is too young for a child to get that sick all of a sudden. Her whole being was symbolical, her arrival, her death.
The night I heard that my father had passed away I got very cold. So cold that I set the heating to 23-25 degrees. I was so cold and my teeth chattering so hard that I took a hot shower for half an hour to get warm. Then everything I touched broke, the internet connection went down, the mouse stopped working, the washing machine broke down and the kitchen was half flooded, I couldn't book a trip for hours because every page gave errors. Didn't sleep because of the headache. A week later at the dentist because of persistent headaches it turned out that a root canal treatment was necessary because of the chattering teeth that evening.
Noa Piccolo the Snail
- New Years Eve 2016 on the picture above, for me, Mika en Noa had her own fruit filled pineapple -
After Mika's arrival I wanted to give her a friend to play with. So Noa Piccolo the snail came in the picture. Snails are extremely social animals like little dogs, who love to bathe. In Loving Memory 06/2016 - 07/2020. Here is Noa taking a bath
"My Father's house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you?"
A wonderful sign in the mountains asking people to leave only their footprints behind
I have a thing for shoes. Said almost every woman....
15 - 20 - 25 degrees color nude shoes
I effin hate 40 degrees. Flipflops are not my thing.
You realize you have a shoe thing when you are looking thru pictures and notice you have a lot of shoe pics...
could not resist making this picture. I noticed the sign while I was waiting for someone in front of that closed shop
this is what happens when you listen to seventies disco music for evenings (leg warmers)
"Now the title bitch isn't applied to just women (sings DeCalifornia) cause too many motherfuckers gotta lot of bitch in them." As I already mentioned, I hate male whores. But they share a spot with cowards, the (often liberal "oh let everybody just be" who will not stand up with passion to defend children or animals) couch potato men who have neither ideology or faith. Boneless and balless. A man even told me recently that he admired Merkel so much. He does not realize that thanks to that whore thousands of children have been molested and women raped because nothing happened to him while the rest is scarred for their lives.
additional: I'm always interested in training and actions. geen actie: geen reactie. vegan vereiste.
Men should dress like...
and I don't mean a suit in blue like creeps put on where they misuse the color blue to instill confidence like politicians.
Nobody Listening Anyway
'Coincidence'. Yes the doorbell rang. No, nobody was there if you paid attention.
Yes you can hear the wind chime, but if you pay attention you'd see there is no wind.
Yes I am aware of the lights in the home. No there is nothing wrong with your eyesight.
And those who initially did recognize the Lords work, would later on forget it. Like the turds in the desert did (no wonder Moses got fucking angry). You turn your back and they forget. But when they need you (God) suddenly they remember again and pray!! I show someone the power of prayer and they go off inspired and buy ghost hunting shit and start looking up demons. WTF. When you very carefuly show something, they get freaked out. 'It's creepy, it's scary'. The angels in their true form are not fluffy angels. They did not present themselves as 'don't be afraid' for no reason. I understand why some cannot have faith or have trouble believing. I also know why some things are as they are. But I cannot explain to people. Because they do not really care to know. If you really want to understand God, read 2 Esdras 4. What if I had asked you how many dwelling places there are at the bottom of the sea? How many rivers flow into the waters beneath the earth? How many rivers are there above the dome of the sky? Where are the exits from the world of the dead? Where are the entrances to Paradise?
The Son of God was hanged because nobody liked to hear his message.
The meat eater does not want to know his snack begged for their lives.
The whore who is after your body only, does not want to hear its superficial.
Jesus was like a mirror, and that's why people hated him. He did not want you to feel good, he wanted you to DO GOOD.
He was no 'social media motivator', 'influencer', 'a guru who asks you to seek your inner light'. Jesus was outspoken, Jesus was truth. Jesus at this very day and age, would be ignored or ridiculed. The only reason why he would not be hanged is because the people have such a big ego, that they would not even bother to listen even if He did spoke.
28 January 2021 - sometimes i can't believe what I am hearing. Theoretical bullpoop crap about what is a trinity blah blah. Was Jesus God, blah blah. Read the bloody bible and you will know. Ask God, and you will know. My spiritual trinity is God his Son and the Spirit, but my mental trinity is based on BIBLE, SCIENCE AND HISTORY. These three are so well grounded together that I have zero interest in theoretical mumbo jumbo discussions from sects that can easily be recognized by their fruits.